free write [what is on my mind]

well first off i just want to say i am cold. my body is warm, but my feet are cold. i would turn the heat on, but shannon is napping and well, heat rises and would just toast her up in her loft, and i don't want to do that. but back to what is on my mind. i like things that are organic and fair trade and responsible. why? because i do. i mean, i think about how much God has given me, like this futon i am laying on that is such a luxury or this computer that cost me nothing and then i think about all the people who don't have these luxuries. and i think that when i go to walmart and kohls and the gap and buy clothes there that the people who made those clothes are underpaid and treated like crap-- the old testament would call that oppression. and i think that it is not fair. how do those companies get away with that? is it really gonna make a difference if i don't buy their stuff. like really? heck if i know. all i know is that ive been reading in proverbs lately about wisdom and boy do i NOT have that. but i really have been trying to learn and the proverbs are like jam packed with instructions on living. and i stumbled upon this verse that says "speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy." [prov 31:8-9] and i read that verse and i think that maybe thats what i am supposed to be doing. and i am not just talking about in my life with my friends and bla bla bla, i am talking about for the rest of my life. or at least for some part of my life. and i would love that. i just recently needed to buy socks and i had to go to satan's mart [walmart] to pick some up. and honestly, like i just didn't want to buy them from there. i did, b/c of the need of warm feet [hey maybe i should put some socks on to make my feet warm up...good thought stephanie] but i really just don't like it. i just want to walk down the street and go buy socks from the lady that sewed them up herself. like thats the kind of lifestyle i want. i want community and support. and on those lines, i want to be able to buy my fruits and veggies from people too. not people at the grocery store, but like my grandma kind of people. i mean, the whole organic thing is not as necessary as the local thing. idk. i think i was born to live like in the little house on the prairie or some junk. i just like it. and really i wouldn't mind the dresses either. i dunno. i just like this stuff and i feel like it takes part in defining me.

GIGATT
-steph